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I made it through my friend Diana's services.  I made it to the guest book before crying.  That is really good for me to make it that far. 

It was a great service beautiful casket, roses, and the family had a couple pictures of her sitting on her casket. I even went up in front of God and everyone there and talked about Diana and told everyone how much I miss her.  Now I am the type of person that can not stand, sit, kneel or even crawl in front of a group of people I have always been terrified and that is crazy cause I am very much a people person love talking to strangers like I have known them forever but to be in front of a group no way no how not me.  I was so scared I can't remember what I even said hope I did ok LOL.  I even tried doing what everyone tells you to do when you have to speak in front of a group of people and that is " just imagine everyone sitting in their underware" ya well they lied it doesn't work I tried it today and trust me it was way more scarier imagining all those people in the underware I even tried imagining them in all different kinds of underware when one pair didn't help I would imagine another kind of undies until I got to thong undies and that was scary enough  to say "ok I give it can't take seeing anymore undies". 

At the gravesite it was neat because there were some geese that flew by and you could here them talking to each other.  I know Diana was on the wings of one of them hitchen a ride to say "goodbye" to all of us one last time.  

I don't know if you seen the two dogs they featured on tv last night Barney and Shorty, but those two little cuties are Diana's and she was always worried about what would happen to them if she ever passed away, well the animal shelter is trying to adopted them both out without having to seperate them.  Diana would just die if they were seperated.  The animal shelter is not charging a fee for the adoption if anyone out there has room in their heart and home for Barney and Shorty please please don't let them be seperated or put to sleep that would kill Diana she cares so much about them two little cuties.  I would love to take them and would but I have 2 dogs and 3 cats.   Anyway Diana I will come and visit you soon and bring Gabers your twin LOL.

THIS IS THE BLOG THAT WAS DONE FOR BARNEY AND SHORTY:

Barney & Shorty lost their owner 12/9/07. She died suddenly and now they need to find a new home. Barney (the Bassett X ) is about 5 yrs. old and Shorty is about 5 yrs. They are indoor dogs with great, fun personalities. They are both neutered. They seem to be inseparable as Shorty follows Barney everywhere. Their owner loved these dogs and spoiled them Shorty sleeps on the bed and Barney on the floor by the bed. They love to eat "hot doggies" for their treat and Barney loves to carry on a conversation.

Your friend forever and ever

Shanna

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Today is really going to be hard for me, It will be the day I have to say "goodbye" to my friend Diana.  I won't get to see her it is a closed casket service, but maybe that is for the best I want to remember her the way she was not laying there in a casket with no smile on her face and all pasty. 

She loves animals as much as I do infact she is the reason I got my cocker spaniel from the animal shelter she showed Gabers (my dog) to me and told me I just had to go get him.  Funny thing is they look just alike, face wise that is LOL.  You know how they have those pictures of owners with their animals and they look just alike well Diana and Gabers are just that.  Everytime I look at Gabers I see Diana. and I know she is right there with me and Gabers.  I know that Diana is up there playing fetch with all my animals that I have lost just having the time of their lives.  That is one way I try and deal with her absence.  But it is truly hard I have never lost a friend before. 

I love and miss you Diana keep my animals company and take good care of them I know you are having a blast with all of them and I know they will be spoiled with you up there LOL.  I will be there today to see you please be there and sit next to me and help me through this.  God I miss you girlfriend.

Shanna  

I just want to wish everyone a Happy Holiday!! Be safe

Shanna

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I just want to tell Diana that I miss her! Diana is a freind/co-worker that was taken away this weekend.  Diana I still keep waiting for you to walk through those front days every morning to say "hi" , but now you won't be walking through those doors, I keep reading your emails and cards you sent to me when I was having a bad day, but now I won't be getting anymore emails or cards from you, (I am glad I kept that ones I have) I go to your desk wanting to give you a hug cause of a card or email you sent me and instead I see your pictures and the black sweater hanging on the back of your chairbut you are not there, guess I won't be giving you anymore hugs, I can't bare to think of how it is going to be when I walk past your desk when all your pictures are gone and your sweater no longer hanging on the back of your chair, I went to put the sweater on that you gave to me cause I am always cold it is still hanging on the coat rack next to my desk, but I just couldn't put it on, I had to laugh at you girlfriend when I would get a package from UPS or FED-EX cause it was always a Christmas gift that you had bought for your grandchilderen on EBAY and I would go to put the package on your desk and couldn't find a place because of all the other packages LOL.  I pray to God that I don't have any more of those packages come in, One other thing Diana you did it and you know what I am talking about don't you? No one in our office likes our boss and so when she would gripe at me for something I would get all mad Diana would always say don't let her win don't let her push you well the day I found out about Diana's death we and my boss had it and I finally told her how I feel, It would have taken me awhile to get mad enough to confront her but Diana made me do it.  The argument was cause I found about about her death I lost it I was crying and couldn't stop was in no shape to answer the phone (that is what I do I am a receptionist) well someone else answered it for me and my boss came ungluded on me and right then and there was not exactly the best time to come ungluded on me.  So a big thanks to Diana you little she devil you.  I miss you girlfriend. 

God please take care of Diana and papmer her she deserves it. See God Diana is the type of person that always puts her kids and everyone elses needs before hers no matter what even though Diana was very very sick so it is truley her turn to be pampered.  Diana you let God and everyone else who wants to pamper you do it or you will be in BIG TROUBLE when I get there girlfriend.  Save me a place ok.  Love you

Shanna