Wow... I haven't gotten on here in a long time. I need to do it more often. Heh. I"m going through my first surgery on Thursday.... Tomorrow.... and it's a simple surgery so I have no worries... but I'm scared. I think I have a right to be... I'm not sure. I"m just getting my wisdom teeth.... tooth.... out. But... they are sadating me through IV. That's what I'm wigging out about. I shouldn't be, it'll be nice to catch some Zs. I dont know anymore. I'm thinking about how Milo looked while he was sadated and I have to hold back tears. Maybe I'm scared of being "Put down" though I've asked for the joining with my childhood companion before. I shouldn't be afraid of anything. I'm going to do missing out on work, and I feel absolutely guilty. My boss has been really strict on my work becuase I like to "skip" I guess. I dont. I love my job. I dont take a day off unless I really have to and I feel it's needed. I need the money. Moreover, it's my heaven in this hell. You dont get a job like that very often. So, I have to endure an empty house, and a painful mouth, and a hungry stomach till I can get my life back into my hands. Is this how everone feels? Does anyone actually look forward to a surgery? This is phsyco! Okay, I know that's spelt wrong too. My head hurts from all the thinking. I wonder how many surgeries the average american endures? I dont want to imagine the max anyone's had. Well... I better go to sleep... not like I'll need it. LOL Gnite! And God bless.